Today is one of those days when I woke up with a dread, a tension, a knot, a not so great feeling in my tummy.

And I am wondering what is causing all of this not-so-feel-goods.

Let’s see…

Neighbour Passing Away

One of my neighbours passed away from cancer. I saw the man go from being super active, on top of keeping his house in top shape in ways I couldn’t have come up on my own (YES, it’s true!), to be utterly helpless (and not to mention, frail) to even walk to the paramedic van within months…? And he leaves behind him a young man (early 20s) who had to deal with it all on his own…

Canada and US are butting heads

Yes, the political situation is horrid EVERYWHERE. But now it’s in our own backyard. Not sure how things will pan out over the next few months. But it’s obviously not looking great. The uncertainty of times, the tension in the air, the tough near future…just thinking of all of this makes my stomach feel the knots. The two countries have declared a trade war on each other in terms of increased (like, ridiculously so!) tariffs on everything. And that means increased prices for most basic of things. It is not going to be pleasant for sure…till we figure out a way? Hopefully…

Hormones

Yes, that is always the up and down trend of my month. And even though I know every single month there will be times I will feel down and out of things, I do dread it. And I believe having other stuff going on is making me feel this down swing a little more harshly this time. Getting out of bed this week has been super hard. Napping has looked very enticing. And my muscles feel like they are moving through molasses when I try to get them excited for exercise. Oh, and motivation for getting anything done is at ground zero…

General Political Noise

Yes, we all know us humans have completely lost it over the last few year. And nowhere else is this “losing it” more visible than in the political realm…from people who have the loudest voice, and most power. Things are extremely worrisome with wars, threatened wars, and politicians screaming at each other…oh the craziness of this world right now 🙁 No wonder the rest of us are feeling down and out with the leaders going bezerk everywhere!

Winter

Lastly, I blame winter. I am SO ready for spring…for birds, for little green shoots in the ground, for all the ice to melt away, for the sharp morning light. For not lugging pounds and pounds of fluff on my body when I step out. For once again loving the feel of fresh air on my skin…I am done being cold, and worrying about slipping on ice, or seeing it’s grey ugliness all around the city. It’s time for some weather change…this has gone on for long enough, no?

Ok, it feels good to get all of this out of my system. I needed the venting! So that tomorrow I can look with eyes of gratitude on what is actually going well in my life, and feel the softness of thankfulness in my body again…