For the past two weeks or so I am having trouble getting up and out of bed. My body screams for more bed time in the mornings, and at some point I do have to stop listening and get moving, because life…
This also means that my yoga practice has become very small- if I can get full 15 minutes, I feel fortunate. This down from 30-45 minutes, and sometimes even longer feels like quite a downfall, and I miss that good chunk of time of intentional movement and breathing to start my day.
And guilt starts taking over.
I look for reasons why this is happening…and I think I mostly blame the weather- with us being in this endless transition period of it being hot and then cold again, I think my body is trying hard to constantly adjust to the changes, and that means more rest is needed.
And even when I do get up later and go about my day, my eyes do feel heavy all morning, and nap seems like a great idea. So it’s like I really can’t get over my tiredness. Over days and weeks. And the guilt multiplies. Because I see myself as a yogi and I want so badly that time in my life. Because it makes me feel good and alive. But my body seems to be refusing to be on board with what my brain has in view for my life.
This constant back and forth between the brain and the body can be quite draining.
It’s when this tug of war gets strong in me that I have to remind myself of what really is important here.
I remember My Health Pyramid as I know what’s important for my health. This is what it looks like:
And if I follow my own thinking from my own brain, I have to remind my raging brain that’s in constant battle with my body over sleep, that
SLEEP COMES FIRST!
It’s that simple. The choice between doing yoga or sleeping is easily and indisputably in in sleep’s favour, and I know it.
But it’s hard to accept the truth and reality of things I guess. And I am a work in progress. So I will keep having this argument between my brain and body, but I will also keep reminding myself that I need sleep over anything. And hopefully one day the message will be received loud and clear, and without any friction…