Life is full on since last week. Deadlines, appointments, being in places of work and study on time, exams (for my son)…its all happening!
But my brain is still catching up.
Am I being slow? And lazy? I wonder…
Making sure people get to their places on time, and meals are ready when they need to be, and the house is somewhat clean, and dirty laundry piles get taken care of, and exercise happens…I am doing all of this. But I have had no energy left to get started with work.
I call giving myself space to get going on Mondays “Monday Grace” where I may not do everything, or everything perfectly, and that’s ok. Because it’s Monday.
This particular year, I am feeling like I need “January Grace”. With everyday stuff sucking all the energy out of me, there seems to be precious little left over for creative work, for moving the needle forward.
Of course, I have the luxury to take my time getting started. People with jobs don’t have that. And I fully appreciate my situation with a lot of gratitude.
I could either abuse myself in my head, and call myself names…lazy, boring, old, slow…whatever.
But I want me to be friends with myself. Always. Because I have to live with myself no matter what goes on in my life. Which means kindness, support and encouraging words will go a whole lot further than abuse. And result in better things- creativity, innovation, having fun without guilt- when I am ready to take it on.
Words matter. Which means choosing them wisely is of greatest importance.
And so…
I am not lazy, and I am not being slow.
I am taking my time to get going.
So that when I am ready, I will be able to show up completely, with commitment, with renewed ideas and enthusiasm. And good things will happen…
Until then…